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Birthday: 1/1/1901
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Interests: Swimming, Water polo. Art, writing, line dancing. You are a lamp, and I am the Darkness. Did Dr. King know how famous his speech would become? Did Da Vinci realize what an absolute genious he was? The potential, O! the potential of humanity, and how much greater the potential with HIM!
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Currently Listening
Human After All
By Daft Punk
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Reason for the last tear shed?
Casey.

Someone who means a great deal to you?
Lots of 'em. My sister, emily, megan, mark.. I could go on.


Do you listen to songs about drugs?
occasionally. Not really.

Anything you want to confess?
Mm.

Highlight of your day?
AWaking up in a bed. :o)


Feel a sense of guilt lately?
..sorta.

Want something badly?
..sorta...

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
meh. Sometimes. Depends on the person.

Who was the last person of the same sex you shared the same bed with?
Emily!

Which of your friends do you argue with the most?
Uhm. Morgan.

What is something you like to do when you're down?
Listen to music, watch tv, eat.. excercise...

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
its easier to to be bitter. Forgetting never works and forgiving is hard.


What is one thing you must have in a relationship?
communication.

Do you think anyone's thinking about you right now?
I hope so.

What attracts you to someone?:
Personality.. views on life.. looks..

Is there something that you want to tell someone but can't?
Mm. No.

Do you find yourself attractive?
At times.

Where's your ideal vacation and why?:
mmmm. I just went camping by a river and yosemite and I must say that was the most relaxed I've been in a loooooong time.

What's the most pain you've experienced physically or emotionally?
Phyiscally.. when I had surgery a few years back. Emotionally... When i get my heart broken


Take it back to the first person you loved, were they worth it?:
yup.

Do you believe in second chances?:
Sometimes.

If there was something you can do over, what would it be?:
Nothing.


What's the biggest turn off?:
Arrogance and pride.

Do you have any special talents?
ehh. Not really.


What helps you relax?
being far away(physically) from home, work, or school. Out of sight, out of mind.

Did the last person you kiss deserve it?:
Uhm. Yes?


Do you think you can possibly be with the person you love forever?:
yes. It's not a possibility. I will be.


How do you feel about yourself as a person?:
I prefer to think that in comparison to humanity I am a fairly decent person.. but we are all people and we all suck, so.. idk.

What do you have planned for your life?:
school.. marriage at some point.. a job.. a house.. maybe mission work?

Can you honestly say that looks don't matter?
nope. very few ppl can.


Would you rather hear the painful truth or a happy lie?:
mm... sometimes i would rather hear a happy lie.. its easier to deal with, but in the end I'm glad I know the truth.

What really irritates you?:
Lots of things irritate me.

Is there someone you're attracted to?:
.. Not really.

Is it hard for you to let something go that you know isn't right for you?:
Yes. (roman)

Have you ever taken anyone for granted?:
... Yes.

Do you think being "heart broken" is as bad as people say?:
Worse.

Have you ever been in love? How'd that end up?:
Yes;.. painfully. and Yes;betrayed.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?:
Of course.

Can you describe your ideal guy/girl?:
nope.


What's the best part of being in a relationship?
Having someone who feels the same about you as you feel about them.. having a bond of trust that you can't get anywhere else.. getting to know every in and out of the other person, and having someone know you better than you know yourself.


Have you ever loved someone you knew you shouldn't?
I was in a relationship with someone I knew I shouldn't have dated and yes I loved them.

What are some things that you have to have everywhere you go?:
cell.

In a tough situation, why do people want advice but don't listen to it?:
They don't want advice, they want someone to confirm their own opinion.


Wednesday, February 13, 2008

A thousand times before,
A thousand times again.
I've told myself over and over
"just wait."
"Don't bend."
Guess it took too long again,
Guess I'm weaker than I look.
Blindly reaching out and that's when
I mistook something for another,
And another and another..
And now I'm in a maze of mirrors, I don't know what's real from what's just a distorted reflection, refracting all around me, far away and close. I can't even see if there's a way out, if there's an end, or if I'm enclosed, walls my tomb, encasing me, til death pulls me apart.


Friday, December 21, 2007

The look in your eyes is so much different than it used to be. You're right. I guess I did expect people to not change. But people change. People change. Sometimes for the better. Sometimes not. But people change. I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt anyone. I never meant to hurt anyone I cared about.

 

But people change.|

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The cursor travels across the page and.. stops. And blinks. It waits. It waits for me to move it across the page. It waits for me to help it push the blank page further and further away. Fill the empty space. Even pages want the empty space filled. Is that so much for me, with a heart, to ask for..?

It's just.. natural. To fill empty, blank space. If we have a gap, will it with all we know how to. For the sake of happiness, satisfaction, and gratification, live for the moment. Forget consequences. Forget what really matters in life. Forget it.

 

Pages and pages of me posted on the internet for everyone to read and you have no idea that I am here, waiting for you to open me up and read me .. like a book.

 

 


Friday, December 14, 2007

So there's this person that I met. Pretty cool.

Schools out. Work's going pretty good. I guess. I'm making money. It's pretty chill. I need to go christmas shopping. Church is... exciting. ..? This one guys leaving for Iraq for a year and a half. This other guy's getting out in february. Blaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Skool. I hate school. I hate scheduling. It's super-duper laaaaaaame.

Went to the beacxh yesterday and it was freezing. Yeah, I went in the water. Bad idea. Went with Cori and this guy i think his name was Casey. It was kinda .. weird.

My scheduling for classes is retARDDDDED. Lame.


Thursday, November 15, 2007

I wrote an entry and my browser refreshed. I'm upset.

 

Goodbye.

 

 



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